today i on her account...i juz wanted to help her work pets and play nightclub city..
when i on her nightclub city...i saw she hire a guy which i dun like...her admirer?
jus feel like down...aft tat, i straight click on the guy profile...she did contact wif him still...
my feelings was FUCKING DISAPPOINTED because, she LIED again...
she told me, nv contact wif him anymore...nv thk anymore....and forget everything..
but in her heart, she still loves and likes him, still thk of him...and remember him...
she cant control herself to find him bek...she cant control to forget him...
she is everything which just wanted him to chat wif her and want herself to get loved from him..
although she say no, but i noe what;s on her mind and what's she thinking...
i reli disappointed..shud i leave it, or shud or take action?
if take action, what shud i do?
break? or giv chance again? or wait her to explain?
my feeling now is totally disappointed and wanted to choose BREAK...
i dun care she find him bek after break, becoz my heart totally broken and hopeless on her..
she is just SUCH UNTRUSTED GAL...good looking gal without a TRUST, without a MATURE thinking...what for i wan her to stay?
i will reconsider everything..i wun SAD anymore...i promise to myself..
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Saturday, April 10, 2010
11/4/2010 5am
from this moment...
i forget everything now...
i reli will...trust me plz ...
i will find a better 1...
i will start better relation to evaluate myself...
i will giv my best to my next gf...
i would sacrifice for them...i will sacrifice for my loves 1...
i will giv them freedom as who they r....
i wun control them anymore...coz i adi very sked...
i tired of everything...i sad to see what isit now..
so frm now onwards, the memories ended...
i will less on9...less gaming...to prevent from sadness occur...
i will hang out more, to know more of u gals...
i aso hope to know what gals thinking...^^
im single and available...
i will be happy always, be bek my character...
learn snooker, and do more exercise...
i goin to keep fit, diet and make myself change!
guys...im BEK!!
i forget everything now...
i reli will...trust me plz ...
i will find a better 1...
i will start better relation to evaluate myself...
i will giv my best to my next gf...
i would sacrifice for them...i will sacrifice for my loves 1...
i will giv them freedom as who they r....
i wun control them anymore...coz i adi very sked...
i tired of everything...i sad to see what isit now..
so frm now onwards, the memories ended...
i will less on9...less gaming...to prevent from sadness occur...
i will hang out more, to know more of u gals...
i aso hope to know what gals thinking...^^
im single and available...
i will be happy always, be bek my character...
learn snooker, and do more exercise...
i goin to keep fit, diet and make myself change!
guys...im BEK!!
tear drops from eyes and heart..sudenly
was alone at home, i cant control...my tears jus drop and memories all came out again..
thought myself forget everything, but is not..im jus lieing myself and every1..
no1 tok to me, no1 share wif me and no1 accompany chat about it...
i keep it all to myself...
i cry it out, to feel better.
thought of wan bek her, but she adi in love wif the guy...
i most unhappy is what i did tat makes her get to know the guy and now, Fall in Love..
2010, new year...is the worst year i ever had...
the unforgetable things will always in my mind and heart...
im so suffer, who can reli tok to me...
i reli nid some1 now...
my appetite reli gone, and makes me have 1 meal per day which not finish...
i gave alot things to her, but in the end...jus him, can finish the relation...
tis i can forever put in heart, and is my biggest enemy...
yea, aso its my challenge...coz i did think is my fault, her fault and HIs fault..
she said she jz got feel towards him, but act she jus lieing herself, lieng me...
she waiting for his action, and wat i hope is...he faster take action...hope tis can start earlier and let her try the most experience 1 now...
im reli suffering...everyday wake up, adi wanted to on9 to see any of her blogs or fb update..
i everytime feel nervous to see her updated things...
but alot of disappointing words comes frm her..
i noe we adi break, but im lidat coz i reli suffering...
i wanted to know everything exactly...
but i cant...jus to c any updates...
this is wat i wanted to say out...i hope i can get better afterall...
i cant brief, is very hard to brief...
she's happy, coz she found her loves 1...im not, i oni loves her..
guys, shud i forget her? i nid opinions...
thought myself forget everything, but is not..im jus lieing myself and every1..
no1 tok to me, no1 share wif me and no1 accompany chat about it...
i keep it all to myself...
i cry it out, to feel better.
thought of wan bek her, but she adi in love wif the guy...
i most unhappy is what i did tat makes her get to know the guy and now, Fall in Love..
2010, new year...is the worst year i ever had...
the unforgetable things will always in my mind and heart...
im so suffer, who can reli tok to me...
i reli nid some1 now...
my appetite reli gone, and makes me have 1 meal per day which not finish...
i gave alot things to her, but in the end...jus him, can finish the relation...
tis i can forever put in heart, and is my biggest enemy...
yea, aso its my challenge...coz i did think is my fault, her fault and HIs fault..
she said she jz got feel towards him, but act she jus lieing herself, lieng me...
she waiting for his action, and wat i hope is...he faster take action...hope tis can start earlier and let her try the most experience 1 now...
im reli suffering...everyday wake up, adi wanted to on9 to see any of her blogs or fb update..
i everytime feel nervous to see her updated things...
but alot of disappointing words comes frm her..
i noe we adi break, but im lidat coz i reli suffering...
i wanted to know everything exactly...
but i cant...jus to c any updates...
this is wat i wanted to say out...i hope i can get better afterall...
i cant brief, is very hard to brief...
she's happy, coz she found her loves 1...im not, i oni loves her..
guys, shud i forget her? i nid opinions...
the 1 i would be
if i were ppl's bf again, i would be the best bf
i would giv her the best, i would giv her what she wants,
i would protect her, loves her, sayang her...
coz i experienced be4 adi...afraid adi....
now i regret adi, but its late jor...
but today i feel much better after knowing im not the 1 tat important anymore...
act is good too, i can let go ma...hehe
my bad temper would always occur, beware guys...
but i will change too..
nowdays i always tok less, make u guys worry...
but i tell u all, dun worry...i adi giv up everything...
unless there's miracle which is impossible...haha
i will stay single...till the day i found a gal which is my loves 1...xD
if i would be again ppl's bf, i will giv them the best romance and unforgetable memories..
bring them social and everything...
past is past, u would see the new me...to all my frens...dun worry me...
u wil c i adi changed once u saw me...xD
thx for being apart of my frens for so many years..around 10+ years d...haha
i would giv her the best, i would giv her what she wants,
i would protect her, loves her, sayang her...
coz i experienced be4 adi...afraid adi....
now i regret adi, but its late jor...
but today i feel much better after knowing im not the 1 tat important anymore...
act is good too, i can let go ma...hehe
my bad temper would always occur, beware guys...
but i will change too..
nowdays i always tok less, make u guys worry...
but i tell u all, dun worry...i adi giv up everything...
unless there's miracle which is impossible...haha
i will stay single...till the day i found a gal which is my loves 1...xD
if i would be again ppl's bf, i will giv them the best romance and unforgetable memories..
bring them social and everything...
past is past, u would see the new me...to all my frens...dun worry me...
u wil c i adi changed once u saw me...xD
thx for being apart of my frens for so many years..around 10+ years d...haha
noon's life today
its 5.30pm now, and i woke up at 6am...
haven eat anything from morning till now..
no appetite ler, swt swt...nvm, can take it as diet too..xD
2pm went to fetch fren and went infi...foong and cheeleong snookering,
me n lemon watching...
there's a fight too at the place, duno wat happening...
but i thk is childish ba, teenagers are lidat
while i was watching snookering, sudenly got a call...
i wondering isit...wahlau i was shock..
Veron's called me...swt...
she ask wher m i , i told her at infi and she ask me tonite accompany her...
she have the same problem wif me...i was shock coz she ask me go out...
i juz feeling weird coz my feelings now are same wif her...
i tell her will let her noe later....
the infi malay gal, so swt...
giv me a name 'ayam katik'...which means
PENDEK...wtf...now almost all workers thr noe my name liao...sei mira...bangau betul la u...
she's cute and pretty, sexy too ...hahah...all guys saw her reli fainted...
i tok abit to her, she like feel screaming and everything, duno wats happening...haha
then we bek at 5pm...
while on the way, i pass jusco...
sudenly memories come out frm my mind again...swt...
i told myself not to thk...then i juz like nth adi...
i juz feel, normally my saturday is not lidat...
jus feel lonely, and not use to it...=(
tats the noon's life of me...^^
haven eat anything from morning till now..
no appetite ler, swt swt...nvm, can take it as diet too..xD
2pm went to fetch fren and went infi...foong and cheeleong snookering,
me n lemon watching...
there's a fight too at the place, duno wat happening...
but i thk is childish ba, teenagers are lidat
while i was watching snookering, sudenly got a call...
i wondering isit...wahlau i was shock..
Veron's called me...swt...
she ask wher m i , i told her at infi and she ask me tonite accompany her...
she have the same problem wif me...i was shock coz she ask me go out...
i juz feeling weird coz my feelings now are same wif her...
i tell her will let her noe later....
the infi malay gal, so swt...
giv me a name 'ayam katik'...which means
PENDEK...wtf...now almost all workers thr noe my name liao...sei mira...bangau betul la u...
she's cute and pretty, sexy too ...hahah...all guys saw her reli fainted...
i tok abit to her, she like feel screaming and everything, duno wats happening...haha
then we bek at 5pm...
while on the way, i pass jusco...
sudenly memories come out frm my mind again...swt...
i told myself not to thk...then i juz like nth adi...
i juz feel, normally my saturday is not lidat...
jus feel lonely, and not use to it...=(
tats the noon's life of me...^^
Friday, April 9, 2010
morning everyone
wake up at 6 went to 'hang ching'...
so long nv meet my cousin sis ..around 4 years...she juz bek frm sg
hmm, veli weird the feels...once thr say wa long time no c...
'i heard my lougung say u gt gf jor wor'....i jus smile...
keep ask me about her...i aso duno how to answer tim lor...swt
7 start to go kangsar road till 9am....and go near sunway thr pray grandma...
i wish to blessed by them ...coz tis ching min i got alot of wishes...
can be said, the whole ching ming, tis time is the most wishes...xD
so tiring after bek, no appetite to eat...
nvm la, make it as diet...
today's mood is much better...
jus hope it can get better day by day...
just like forget all unhappy things...
i wish i could do it!! gogoggo!!
so long nv meet my cousin sis ..around 4 years...she juz bek frm sg
hmm, veli weird the feels...once thr say wa long time no c...
'i heard my lougung say u gt gf jor wor'....i jus smile...
keep ask me about her...i aso duno how to answer tim lor...swt
7 start to go kangsar road till 9am....and go near sunway thr pray grandma...
i wish to blessed by them ...coz tis ching min i got alot of wishes...
can be said, the whole ching ming, tis time is the most wishes...xD
so tiring after bek, no appetite to eat...
nvm la, make it as diet...
today's mood is much better...
jus hope it can get better day by day...
just like forget all unhappy things...
i wish i could do it!! gogoggo!!
at last
today is my last day toking bout her...
at las, she delete our 2 years+ memories photos...=(
is ok, coz new life shud be lidat...as long she get happier, whatever aso not important
nowdays saw her so happy, i adi fong sum...no more tears, no more stress, no more unhappiness
wish her always could be like now...hehe...
see bek those pics, reli thk bek alot of things...but i shudn't say anymore...
its past...
everyday wake up, like lost smth very important...what isit ??is her...
las time, wake up, happily on9 do whatever aso happy...coz im still wif her
but when it comes now, it totally different...
i muz be more independent adi...cannot rely on her anymore...
because she found her loves 1, goin KL sooner...
after a week evaluation of myself, my bad attitude was eveything out frm my mind
bad temper, simply scold, siu hei, *dam lam yan*, cant control n many more
cant list down ler...so geng hor...coz i still haven face things i shud ...i haven start my job...its lidat..i adi realize everything...jus wan to tell 'YOU', sorry yea^^
coz tis almost 3 years, adi happened alot things till its uncountable...
what past is past, u shud look forward yea....and same goes to me rite...
i will not cry as i promised, will stay happily=)
ok, after today , i reli would not say things about her anymore la...
hope my frens around me wun worry me again la..
i try to be the funniest 1 again, the talkatives 1, and the playful 1...
counting down to singapore...if there's some incovenience causes, would jus stay bek ipoh..
i will stay strong!!!....wish me luck yea
at las, she delete our 2 years+ memories photos...=(
is ok, coz new life shud be lidat...as long she get happier, whatever aso not important
nowdays saw her so happy, i adi fong sum...no more tears, no more stress, no more unhappiness
wish her always could be like now...hehe...
see bek those pics, reli thk bek alot of things...but i shudn't say anymore...
its past...
everyday wake up, like lost smth very important...what isit ??is her...
las time, wake up, happily on9 do whatever aso happy...coz im still wif her
but when it comes now, it totally different...
i muz be more independent adi...cannot rely on her anymore...
because she found her loves 1, goin KL sooner...
after a week evaluation of myself, my bad attitude was eveything out frm my mind
bad temper, simply scold, siu hei, *dam lam yan*, cant control n many more
cant list down ler...so geng hor...coz i still haven face things i shud ...i haven start my job...its lidat..i adi realize everything...jus wan to tell 'YOU', sorry yea^^
coz tis almost 3 years, adi happened alot things till its uncountable...
what past is past, u shud look forward yea....and same goes to me rite...
i will not cry as i promised, will stay happily=)
ok, after today , i reli would not say things about her anymore la...
hope my frens around me wun worry me again la..
i try to be the funniest 1 again, the talkatives 1, and the playful 1...
counting down to singapore...if there's some incovenience causes, would jus stay bek ipoh..
i will stay strong!!!....wish me luck yea
Thursday, April 8, 2010
this morning
wake up earli in the morning till now 2pm, haven wash up and gautim
stil chating and editing blogs and fb...haha...
after chat wif karyan feel better...i will give up adi^^
coz i know everything adi ler...thx for giving me support...
got to get rdy coz later meet up her lor...
haha, so long nv meet adi man...my gosh!!
tell david dun angry wor...haha....
actually, u r the 1 who can chat wif me all this...
till now i oni found u to chat wif...no 1 else i did...
mebe is becoz u r gal?? haha...
u clever lor...hapy??
anyway, meet u later...getting rdy now lor...
from morning till now, haven even drink a drops of water and eat a bit of things...
i goin to be god adi...haha...
i sure will be, coz i gonna diet now...
see my thin face is how sin ...10 years nv see my leng body...
gonna do GYM nex week....jump jump high ...and alot exercises...
coz im free adi...veli freedom...
i can feel freedom is much better...coz if u got loves 1...
u worry them alot, worry them get grab, get cheated and get accident...
but now, im alone...worry myself jek...haha
ok, time for me to get rdy and wash up..!!!
stil chating and editing blogs and fb...haha...
after chat wif karyan feel better...i will give up adi^^
coz i know everything adi ler...thx for giving me support...
got to get rdy coz later meet up her lor...
haha, so long nv meet adi man...my gosh!!
tell david dun angry wor...haha....
actually, u r the 1 who can chat wif me all this...
till now i oni found u to chat wif...no 1 else i did...
mebe is becoz u r gal?? haha...
u clever lor...hapy??
anyway, meet u later...getting rdy now lor...
from morning till now, haven even drink a drops of water and eat a bit of things...
i goin to be god adi...haha...
i sure will be, coz i gonna diet now...
see my thin face is how sin ...10 years nv see my leng body...
gonna do GYM nex week....jump jump high ...and alot exercises...
coz im free adi...veli freedom...
i can feel freedom is much better...coz if u got loves 1...
u worry them alot, worry them get grab, get cheated and get accident...
but now, im alone...worry myself jek...haha
ok, time for me to get rdy and wash up..!!!
feeling more confident...
i know everything adi...but, im nth...
coz i noe i can treat ppl better than others do...
time prove everything, let her try the pain...
let her be the victim...ppl get experience by getting hurt n cheated.
so is time, to get this things....
i can prove this is the real fact, jus giv more time...
time reli can prove...!!
i from this moment, im single and not available, but actually available too lar..haha
i will forget her, forget everything that hurts me....coz i be bek myself...
cry out shud be ok for everything who is hurt and sad...
coz i tried this...i feel better...
YES!!! thx god....i reli can do it...
coz i noe i can treat ppl better than others do...
time prove everything, let her try the pain...
let her be the victim...ppl get experience by getting hurt n cheated.
so is time, to get this things....
i can prove this is the real fact, jus giv more time...
time reli can prove...!!
i from this moment, im single and not available, but actually available too lar..haha
i will forget her, forget everything that hurts me....coz i be bek myself...
cry out shud be ok for everything who is hurt and sad...
coz i tried this...i feel better...
YES!!! thx god....i reli can do it...
heart feel uncomfortable
everyday saw her post, i feel not comfortable..
i knw she still miss him, i noe it...
and she still veli love him...
but duno why my heart not comfortable...
i jus dissatisfy wif it...she go Kl...
i jus keep thking is becoz of her frens...
but no matter how, i jus hope she can happily stay in this world...
coz im the worst human here....
erm, i gonna say i shudn't do tat anymore
coz i muz forget it everything now on...
i promise myself what shud i do from now on...
once i forget, i will just giv no dam to any1...
i will forget everything from now on...
coz i suffering if thking of it...
so beter to be myself, dun care anything...^^
i hope myself could be better 1....take care!
i knw she still miss him, i noe it...
and she still veli love him...
but duno why my heart not comfortable...
i jus dissatisfy wif it...she go Kl...
i jus keep thking is becoz of her frens...
but no matter how, i jus hope she can happily stay in this world...
coz im the worst human here....
erm, i gonna say i shudn't do tat anymore
coz i muz forget it everything now on...
i promise myself what shud i do from now on...
once i forget, i will just giv no dam to any1...
i will forget everything from now on...
coz i suffering if thking of it...
so beter to be myself, dun care anything...^^
i hope myself could be better 1....take care!
hmm...
is the feeling that im forget everything...tats good !!yea!!
coz i noe, everything ended peacefully...coz i noe my quality...^^
although how she love me, the 1 who she love the most is still him...
hehe, actually i adi put down everything adi...
coz i know the answer adi..afterall!
thx thx...
start to diet, coz im so fat jor...stomach so big ...aiyohyoh...
the gals said, my face so chubby?? wtf sia??
i duno shud say wat lor...aiyoh....
haha, anyway thx for praising aso lar....
abit happy xD...
things past day by day, i shud not so worry anymore...
coz i know things will be alrite...i wanna have better future...
shud look forward for better training place...
singapore or UK again??
but i prefer to try singapore 1st...coz alot relatives and got frens there too..
i would start journey once finish my training...hehe..
hope to get a better life thr
and to experience more materialistic gal there...see how they act and behave...
horhor....im coming...!!
coz i noe, everything ended peacefully...coz i noe my quality...^^
although how she love me, the 1 who she love the most is still him...
hehe, actually i adi put down everything adi...
coz i know the answer adi..afterall!
thx thx...
start to diet, coz im so fat jor...stomach so big ...aiyohyoh...
the gals said, my face so chubby?? wtf sia??
i duno shud say wat lor...aiyoh....
haha, anyway thx for praising aso lar....
abit happy xD...
things past day by day, i shud not so worry anymore...
coz i know things will be alrite...i wanna have better future...
shud look forward for better training place...
singapore or UK again??
but i prefer to try singapore 1st...coz alot relatives and got frens there too..
i would start journey once finish my training...hehe..
hope to get a better life thr
and to experience more materialistic gal there...see how they act and behave...
horhor....im coming...!!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
so weird de?
woke up earli in the morning...coz my unhappy things are still wif me...swt
each day 1 memory, tats enuf for me to cant slp...
thk bek that she always wants to overnite in my hs but i always say,
sked mum dun like ar, tis n tat...
but the main reason, is i dun1 her mum to know she overnite at my hs...haha
so funny, i aso duno y...
actually im so regret tat how i treat her....
but its too late adi ler....i jus feel better than be4, coz i wun like suffering adi...
anyway, good morning to every1...
if thr is still a chance, i would make it the best 1 xD...
everynite, yumcha wif frens...chat alot...experience more...
coz our conversation not jus joke, but aso future and ppl's thinking...
i love to make jokes, just tis few weeks, i adi stop making jokes wif them..
coz i reli duno what shud i say..haha...sorry guys...
i will try my best to be bek myself 1st yea...
finally, actually i slp at 3am but duno y....
i wanted to wait her bek , see how's she..
she came bek, said she's drunk? i was OMG...worrying alotz
i keep call her, but no answers...im so afraid...worried...
but actually, why i shud do tat??
we adi single, and shudn't do tat wert...haha...
but sorry to say, my feelings are still here...jus worry alot...
no other meanings ba, i would try my best not to find u ^^
last but not least, alcohol is bad for health...
release stress, unhappiness, or stress got many choices other than drunk...
u guys shud noe when u be some1 u happy, u could release everything...
'You' aso noe it wert...but y muz be drunk?? nvm le, u at least tried adi...noe it adi..
always stay healthy, stay happily...makes ppl around u not to worries^^
to every1 here, once she ask me find another better in future..
i was so unhappy...but, as i noe i adi will be single all times...
i wun start a relation easily anymore...
im just me, and will work hard for money...
the life without money, its just corrupted...
same goes to love, every1 nid loves...
guys normally wun get this, jus for gal...xD
i noe i dun hv anymore...tats y mus stay stronger...
anway, I CAN DO IT!!!
to 'You', take care always...
each day 1 memory, tats enuf for me to cant slp...
thk bek that she always wants to overnite in my hs but i always say,
sked mum dun like ar, tis n tat...
but the main reason, is i dun1 her mum to know she overnite at my hs...haha
so funny, i aso duno y...
actually im so regret tat how i treat her....
but its too late adi ler....i jus feel better than be4, coz i wun like suffering adi...
anyway, good morning to every1...
if thr is still a chance, i would make it the best 1 xD...
everynite, yumcha wif frens...chat alot...experience more...
coz our conversation not jus joke, but aso future and ppl's thinking...
i love to make jokes, just tis few weeks, i adi stop making jokes wif them..
coz i reli duno what shud i say..haha...sorry guys...
i will try my best to be bek myself 1st yea...
finally, actually i slp at 3am but duno y....
i wanted to wait her bek , see how's she..
she came bek, said she's drunk? i was OMG...worrying alotz
i keep call her, but no answers...im so afraid...worried...
but actually, why i shud do tat??
we adi single, and shudn't do tat wert...haha...
but sorry to say, my feelings are still here...jus worry alot...
no other meanings ba, i would try my best not to find u ^^
last but not least, alcohol is bad for health...
release stress, unhappiness, or stress got many choices other than drunk...
u guys shud noe when u be some1 u happy, u could release everything...
'You' aso noe it wert...but y muz be drunk?? nvm le, u at least tried adi...noe it adi..
always stay healthy, stay happily...makes ppl around u not to worries^^
to every1 here, once she ask me find another better in future..
i was so unhappy...but, as i noe i adi will be single all times...
i wun start a relation easily anymore...
im just me, and will work hard for money...
the life without money, its just corrupted...
same goes to love, every1 nid loves...
guys normally wun get this, jus for gal...xD
i noe i dun hv anymore...tats y mus stay stronger...
anway, I CAN DO IT!!!
to 'You', take care always...
yea!!
im feeling good and relax after knowing the answers exactly...
i will be strong from now on...xD
if i could do a better bf, i would cont be the best 1...
coz i know myself changed alot...hehe!!
actually, what is my planning??
i still dun hv yet but hope to finish my training faster...
so funny, in workplace juz 1st day...i get praise cute??
i guess she's the prettiest 1 in the hotel...haha..
thx joey tell me tat she praise me cute...coz im happy...haha
but sad to say, i leaved the hotel and i got to train at new hotel..
i hope to get more frenly staff there...^^
what past is past, human shud look forward...
after my training where would i be??
UK, SIngapore, Australia or stay bek in ipoh??
my 1st choice actually is UK coz i reli like there...^^
i shud thx to my frens which so concern me nowdays...
thx to u all, coz we from primary till now are still good frens...
thx god that letting us know each other and tgt for so long....
everytime i got problems, i will jus go to temple and pray hard...
and afterall, i feel better ^^
so, from today onwards, im still who i am...but jz changed some bad things...
im happy!! yeaaaa
i will be strong from now on...xD
if i could do a better bf, i would cont be the best 1...
coz i know myself changed alot...hehe!!
actually, what is my planning??
i still dun hv yet but hope to finish my training faster...
so funny, in workplace juz 1st day...i get praise cute??
i guess she's the prettiest 1 in the hotel...haha..
thx joey tell me tat she praise me cute...coz im happy...haha
but sad to say, i leaved the hotel and i got to train at new hotel..
i hope to get more frenly staff there...^^
what past is past, human shud look forward...
after my training where would i be??
UK, SIngapore, Australia or stay bek in ipoh??
my 1st choice actually is UK coz i reli like there...^^
i shud thx to my frens which so concern me nowdays...
thx to u all, coz we from primary till now are still good frens...
thx god that letting us know each other and tgt for so long....
everytime i got problems, i will jus go to temple and pray hard...
and afterall, i feel better ^^
so, from today onwards, im still who i am...but jz changed some bad things...
im happy!! yeaaaa
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
im confusing
i did find her to tok...she jus keep quiet...i duno exactly what she thinking...
i just know im hurt enuf...im sad that she's lidat...
i saw her tat time, her face very sharp and not as round as last time..
like very *pucat*.....
my heart feel so pain...coz i promised her 1 thing be4, she noe n i noe..
i thk bek alot of things once be wif her..
but untill now, i duno what is our relation actually
what if i let *You* choose either me or him??
if u choose me, u must forget him and is totally do...
if u choose him, u muz forget him and is totally must...
this decision is hard for her...
but is ok if her decision made, i just respect...
forcing loves are not long lasting...
i feels wan to care her thru sms when she sms me..
but im thinking, why she care me? we adi single?
and i aso cant accept what she did wif the guy and what she wrote on her blog..
but, if last time i think i adi changed to worst and dam angry and tulan
tis few days i adi change abit, im not as bad temper as last time...
i will continue and slowly change this...
for now, i will let her think properly who to choose?
just let me know when u got the answers, ur faithful will let me trust u
i wun mind what is the answers..^^
i just know im hurt enuf...im sad that she's lidat...
i saw her tat time, her face very sharp and not as round as last time..
like very *pucat*.....
my heart feel so pain...coz i promised her 1 thing be4, she noe n i noe..
i thk bek alot of things once be wif her..
but untill now, i duno what is our relation actually
what if i let *You* choose either me or him??
if u choose me, u must forget him and is totally do...
if u choose him, u muz forget him and is totally must...
this decision is hard for her...
but is ok if her decision made, i just respect...
forcing loves are not long lasting...
i feels wan to care her thru sms when she sms me..
but im thinking, why she care me? we adi single?
and i aso cant accept what she did wif the guy and what she wrote on her blog..
but, if last time i think i adi changed to worst and dam angry and tulan
tis few days i adi change abit, im not as bad temper as last time...
i will continue and slowly change this...
for now, i will let her think properly who to choose?
just let me know when u got the answers, ur faithful will let me trust u
i wun mind what is the answers..^^
strange feel
today i quitted my training...i veli tired..
no mood to work...boring all the time, once it silent i will thk alot things..
now i thk bek, las time when we got this prob..she use to tam me and sms me...
now, she adi changed...she wun and she just let go it...i duno y it lidat...mebe tis time, our relation muz end ...isit i dun appreciate or she dun??i duno!
wat if i ask her to forget him?? is tat to over?? what if she dun??
i thk...all this relation nw is depend on how she think n how she want...
if continue lidat, i will just go UK and wun bek anymore...
she might lost me in her heart and mind afterall...
i wil jus have my new life...
i wish she could get me bek to her, i wish she could leave him...
i wish she could change herself afterall...dun always do the same thing to betray her loves 1
but will she do all this?? i reli duno....
can i noe wat shud i do??
no mood to work...boring all the time, once it silent i will thk alot things..
now i thk bek, las time when we got this prob..she use to tam me and sms me...
now, she adi changed...she wun and she just let go it...i duno y it lidat...mebe tis time, our relation muz end ...isit i dun appreciate or she dun??i duno!
wat if i ask her to forget him?? is tat to over?? what if she dun??
i thk...all this relation nw is depend on how she think n how she want...
if continue lidat, i will just go UK and wun bek anymore...
she might lost me in her heart and mind afterall...
i wil jus have my new life...
i wish she could get me bek to her, i wish she could leave him...
i wish she could change herself afterall...dun always do the same thing to betray her loves 1
but will she do all this?? i reli duno....
can i noe wat shud i do??
Monday, April 5, 2010
i nid care
jus woke up...i feel no1 can chat wif me...i jus post it here...
last time my hp use to have at least a msg....
now, i can even us 3 finger count my msg...
im not use to it, coz i feel im lonely ...i reli lonely
i nid care, coz im the 1 which nid ppl tok to me, care me and be wif me
everytime i miss her, i nid to see her fb, blogs
but once i open her blog, i did see veli disappointing and sad things which i cant even stand
i decided close it, i reli cant control myself when c it...what shud i do??
i nd to forget it,,, i shud not view any of her page...becoz, everything is related to tat guy...
tat guy take advantages to grab her once she got prob and she's easily get tam ...
i keep thinking, is tat my prob again? since our relation ended, wat fr i care her??
but honestly , i reli do care her becoz i still love her...i wan her to be good...
dun1 her to write bout others but me, yes i noe is impossible...
i adi try my best to give up...i started my blog becoz of u...
lastly, i would juz say out my feelings, i nid care!
human nid cares!!
but, if its impossible,i will try myself not to rely on any1 anymore...
its very sad day, since my birthday til now...
soong seng...stand up plz
last time my hp use to have at least a msg....
now, i can even us 3 finger count my msg...
im not use to it, coz i feel im lonely ...i reli lonely
i nid care, coz im the 1 which nid ppl tok to me, care me and be wif me
everytime i miss her, i nid to see her fb, blogs
but once i open her blog, i did see veli disappointing and sad things which i cant even stand
i decided close it, i reli cant control myself when c it...what shud i do??
i nd to forget it,,, i shud not view any of her page...becoz, everything is related to tat guy...
tat guy take advantages to grab her once she got prob and she's easily get tam ...
i keep thinking, is tat my prob again? since our relation ended, wat fr i care her??
but honestly , i reli do care her becoz i still love her...i wan her to be good...
dun1 her to write bout others but me, yes i noe is impossible...
i adi try my best to give up...i started my blog becoz of u...
lastly, i would juz say out my feelings, i nid care!
human nid cares!!
but, if its impossible,i will try myself not to rely on any1 anymore...
its very sad day, since my birthday til now...
soong seng...stand up plz
feeling better
i adi said out everything...hope she understand...
although its hurt, i just let go...
i cant stand wat she n the guy did, she told me no relation besides fren wif him
but for me, i got my own answer...coz once i c her blog tat the guy hug her...
i totally broke down...i will just wish her but not angry her...
guys out there, do u guys can stand when ur gal so close wif guys?
untill write missing and falling in love wif u??
i jus wan some opinion...is tat too much or isit ok???
for me, i wun be ok coz i wun share my gf wif others...
gf is ONE and LOVE is for ONE not to SHARE wif others...
i adi feel im better....aft cry and say everything out...
i nid to take care myself again...nid take care my family.,..
i dun1 them to worry me...i will stand up...
is time for me to take a break...
hope she will always be happy....wun get cheated easily...
coz she always get *tam*...then veli happy...but actually what ppl's thinking she duno...juz noe ppl is funny and playful tat match him....later will noe the real person..alwas take care
although its hurt, i just let go...
i cant stand wat she n the guy did, she told me no relation besides fren wif him
but for me, i got my own answer...coz once i c her blog tat the guy hug her...
i totally broke down...i will just wish her but not angry her...
guys out there, do u guys can stand when ur gal so close wif guys?
untill write missing and falling in love wif u??
i jus wan some opinion...is tat too much or isit ok???
for me, i wun be ok coz i wun share my gf wif others...
gf is ONE and LOVE is for ONE not to SHARE wif others...
i adi feel im better....aft cry and say everything out...
i nid to take care myself again...nid take care my family.,..
i dun1 them to worry me...i will stand up...
is time for me to take a break...
hope she will always be happy....wun get cheated easily...
coz she always get *tam*...then veli happy...but actually what ppl's thinking she duno...juz noe ppl is funny and playful tat match him....later will noe the real person..alwas take care
Sunday, April 4, 2010
short blog before work
i slp at 5am and woke at 6.40am...i cant slp well at all...
i cant stand when c her waiting tat guy always....always chat happily each other
i duno y i can be lidat..i ask myself not to thk negative and dun care anymore...
is like i dun like ppl replace my job...i hate it...
but actually, if she's happy, im happy wif it and will let go everything...
i try my best to do so...
she had a nitemare so do i?? i did, but its worst...im ok coz i noe it is true nitemare...
to YOU, if u're having nitemare, get a warm water for urself and slp again...will feel better...
and if got things kacau u, say *amitabha*....shall be ok...
i going work later, hope it is ok for me...
i not enuf slp at all...jus feel tiring n moody all the while...
will get it bek here once i finish my 1st day work...
i cant stand when c her waiting tat guy always....always chat happily each other
i duno y i can be lidat..i ask myself not to thk negative and dun care anymore...
is like i dun like ppl replace my job...i hate it...
but actually, if she's happy, im happy wif it and will let go everything...
i try my best to do so...
she had a nitemare so do i?? i did, but its worst...im ok coz i noe it is true nitemare...
to YOU, if u're having nitemare, get a warm water for urself and slp again...will feel better...
and if got things kacau u, say *amitabha*....shall be ok...
i going work later, hope it is ok for me...
i not enuf slp at all...jus feel tiring n moody all the while...
will get it bek here once i finish my 1st day work...
unbliffable
from tat day till now, i reli thinking tat im a loser..
its unbliffable tat just appear of a guy can end the relation of us..
what are that guy? playful? cheater? act good? or real good?
i really duno, got som1 told me that he's immature guy..
but for me, it doesn't matter coz at least he's handsome than me, can even treat her and give her happiness...but im not sure is short moment or long.
i really dissatisfy that jus a guy spoilt the whole 2 years+ relation..
i promise myself, i will not have the 2nd times and is the last im tat stupid...
im wondering, am i stupid? or she easily trust ppl??
no prove has given now, time will prove...
main reason, is juz unbliffable that i lose to him...
and if that guy did play her, things i will do is what i shud do...
and i will not FORGET n FORGIVE!!
i promise myself...
its unbliffable tat just appear of a guy can end the relation of us..
what are that guy? playful? cheater? act good? or real good?
i really duno, got som1 told me that he's immature guy..
but for me, it doesn't matter coz at least he's handsome than me, can even treat her and give her happiness...but im not sure is short moment or long.
i really dissatisfy that jus a guy spoilt the whole 2 years+ relation..
i promise myself, i will not have the 2nd times and is the last im tat stupid...
im wondering, am i stupid? or she easily trust ppl??
no prove has given now, time will prove...
main reason, is juz unbliffable that i lose to him...
and if that guy did play her, things i will do is what i shud do...
and i will not FORGET n FORGIVE!!
i promise myself...
heart still broke down? WHat am i?
i think, i need alot of time to heal bek my heart...
from today onwards, i would be single and it is long term...
hurt alot, but i will take times to heal it.
whatever it is, just be bek myself...i will control myself in everything..
once i see her happily wif frens, i did unhappy,but positive way i shud be happy.
but i wun care anymore...
eventhough i know is my fault, and aso she did it too...i duno is serious or not...but i reli dissatisfy tat thing happen to me..
i think, time for me to forget everything...
tml is my 1st day training, i reli have no mood to train...not excited nor nervous at all..
just wanna take more rest, more time to heal bek my heart....
let me introduce my attitude, im bad anger, fast angry, *dai Lam Yan* and Very Cow...
those who knows me well, shud noe what to do....
but i promise myself frm now on, all this bad thing will disappear from me...
i'll be a good guy...very very good...to all my frens, i'll prove to u...
today, memories again appear in my mind...
i remembered the day we went out happily...fetch u and wait u in ur hs...
chat wif ur mum, drink soup n playing wif hin hin...the cute guy
i always waited her for so long and get angry...
but now, i no more chance again to do so...
things i shud do is, to change my attitude now...from now and tis minute...
jus for my own good...
i nv hope things bek to me, i just hope myself can succesfully chg my attitude...
although myself not happy as her, but i still will force myself LEARN the experience and LEARN how to face the LOVE when it HURTS....
i think nth can replace for this...
what if she started relation? what if she kissed? what if she holds hand? what if she too over than everything than tat?? yea, if she's still my gf i really will not forgive anymore...even now it happens, i will give the same answer...
now, she got her freedom...im happy wif it...
from last time till now, i go temples often...
what i pray everytime? let me say it out...
*god, may u bless my gf and her family always safe and healthy,and also me and my family*
*god, may u bless me n my gf would always so lovely and peacefully and make sure she's very guai*
*god, may u bless her result can get better grade and always save more money for her own good*
yea, thats why im so often go to temple...
but now, she fall in love wif another 1, she happily stay wif another 1...
and my wish yterday in temple is
*god, may u bless her safe and healthy always*
*god, may u bless her to be more strong and wun easily trust ppl*
*god, PLS bless her to be more MAture in thinking, WUn get cheated by ppl and pls bless her have a good and is the BEST relation from now on*
i think, myself would always pray for her...
and now, my job is ended....may u stay happily, peacefully, and healthy.
drink more plain water, not contain sugar drinks, eat more veges, less oily...
becareful always when goin out...
lastly, best wishes...to u...my job untill now, im quitting and is quitted...thanks for being my gf and thx u becoz can stand me untill now...from today, i will not disappointing u becoz i will change my attitude. thanks again
from today onwards, i would be single and it is long term...
hurt alot, but i will take times to heal it.
whatever it is, just be bek myself...i will control myself in everything..
once i see her happily wif frens, i did unhappy,but positive way i shud be happy.
but i wun care anymore...
eventhough i know is my fault, and aso she did it too...i duno is serious or not...but i reli dissatisfy tat thing happen to me..
i think, time for me to forget everything...
tml is my 1st day training, i reli have no mood to train...not excited nor nervous at all..
just wanna take more rest, more time to heal bek my heart....
let me introduce my attitude, im bad anger, fast angry, *dai Lam Yan* and Very Cow...
those who knows me well, shud noe what to do....
but i promise myself frm now on, all this bad thing will disappear from me...
i'll be a good guy...very very good...to all my frens, i'll prove to u...
today, memories again appear in my mind...
i remembered the day we went out happily...fetch u and wait u in ur hs...
chat wif ur mum, drink soup n playing wif hin hin...the cute guy
i always waited her for so long and get angry...
but now, i no more chance again to do so...
things i shud do is, to change my attitude now...from now and tis minute...
jus for my own good...
i nv hope things bek to me, i just hope myself can succesfully chg my attitude...
although myself not happy as her, but i still will force myself LEARN the experience and LEARN how to face the LOVE when it HURTS....
i think nth can replace for this...
what if she started relation? what if she kissed? what if she holds hand? what if she too over than everything than tat?? yea, if she's still my gf i really will not forgive anymore...even now it happens, i will give the same answer...
now, she got her freedom...im happy wif it...
from last time till now, i go temples often...
what i pray everytime? let me say it out...
*god, may u bless my gf and her family always safe and healthy,and also me and my family*
*god, may u bless me n my gf would always so lovely and peacefully and make sure she's very guai*
*god, may u bless her result can get better grade and always save more money for her own good*
yea, thats why im so often go to temple...
but now, she fall in love wif another 1, she happily stay wif another 1...
and my wish yterday in temple is
*god, may u bless her safe and healthy always*
*god, may u bless her to be more strong and wun easily trust ppl*
*god, PLS bless her to be more MAture in thinking, WUn get cheated by ppl and pls bless her have a good and is the BEST relation from now on*
i think, myself would always pray for her...
and now, my job is ended....may u stay happily, peacefully, and healthy.
drink more plain water, not contain sugar drinks, eat more veges, less oily...
becareful always when goin out...
lastly, best wishes...to u...my job untill now, im quitting and is quitted...thanks for being my gf and thx u becoz can stand me untill now...from today, i will not disappointing u becoz i will change my attitude. thanks again
Saturday, April 3, 2010
insomnia?
im very tiring and my eyes jz like swollen... but feel nid take more rest.. its 4.30am and i went for bed last midnite. i close my eyes and started to sleep, aft 5 mins , all the memories appear in my mind again like those human gonna die soon will recall bek all the memories. i open my eyes, keep think back the happy and sad moment. i remember the day she overnite in my hs, she like always hope to stay wif me. but im the 1 that always say, dun la...later mum dun like tis n tat... the day she overnite in my hs are 2 times, both times also i nv slp well becoz i afraid her get cold. i did woke up in the middle of nite n cover blanket for her. and then i continue to slp bek. its like, things are past so fast. ALways say, appreciate ur loves 1...
actually, memories are memories, but y am i still thinking of it so much?? i jus can tell u guys, is because our relation adi 2 years and 7 months and actually counted as 8 month. i got feelings, and every human do. when my eyes close for the 5 min, it sudenly open bek from 4.35am- 6.30am. although aft tat i fall asleep, its really a sleepless nite and its not well. till i woke up at 9am, my eyes are still tiring. tml is my 1st day training in hill city. i know is tough for me, becoz i still dun have the mood. i will just try my best...i will forget it....
everyday i will just feel wanna say out all the unhappy things here, not once but few times. my blog started 2 days but it looks like alot things i've post. i did think bek her and that guy, becoz her blog is all about the guy which is too over. i really cant stand on it, i decided to mke the last decision. she told me she wanna giv me a birthday suprise, but the suprise i get is wt i c at her blog...for me, i think their relation get closer since few month ago...although she juz post it for few days things.i know im stupid, i know every1 did say im stupid. i promise myself, will just stand up...trying my best. every1 do think future but not jus a short term. when u jus think short term, ur disadvantage is get cheated. becoz every short term things are happy, but when it goes long term, things will totally change.. human are jus the same.
i think i shud stop here, i will write more later. i need a rest, its very tiring...its very suffering, when u c ur loves 1 wif another 1...and its happily...but to wish them, happy always...
actually, memories are memories, but y am i still thinking of it so much?? i jus can tell u guys, is because our relation adi 2 years and 7 months and actually counted as 8 month. i got feelings, and every human do. when my eyes close for the 5 min, it sudenly open bek from 4.35am- 6.30am. although aft tat i fall asleep, its really a sleepless nite and its not well. till i woke up at 9am, my eyes are still tiring. tml is my 1st day training in hill city. i know is tough for me, becoz i still dun have the mood. i will just try my best...i will forget it....
everyday i will just feel wanna say out all the unhappy things here, not once but few times. my blog started 2 days but it looks like alot things i've post. i did think bek her and that guy, becoz her blog is all about the guy which is too over. i really cant stand on it, i decided to mke the last decision. she told me she wanna giv me a birthday suprise, but the suprise i get is wt i c at her blog...for me, i think their relation get closer since few month ago...although she juz post it for few days things.i know im stupid, i know every1 did say im stupid. i promise myself, will just stand up...trying my best. every1 do think future but not jus a short term. when u jus think short term, ur disadvantage is get cheated. becoz every short term things are happy, but when it goes long term, things will totally change.. human are jus the same.
i think i shud stop here, i will write more later. i need a rest, its very tiring...its very suffering, when u c ur loves 1 wif another 1...and its happily...but to wish them, happy always...
my tears suddenly drop
i thinking of our memories, is so quiet now and it is time time for me keep thinking on what had we experience be4. every happy n unhappy things comes out frm my mind. sorry to u babe, i had scolded u alot ...i make u not happy, sad, and hurt when scold u without thinking,,,it is rite tat u go to another guy side. i reli forgive u , i shud not angry. u go ahead my dear, i will always support u in heart, praying hard for u. i *ng seh dek* u....
wish u always be happy and dun be notty adi coz u adi 19.
reli, duno wat shud i said beside sorry tat what i did..i still remember the way i scolded u...
i very sorry...hope u can forget it...and go to ur new life...best wishes for u my dear..
to al my frens, my tears are dropping nonstop now....yes, i am crying adi...my heart brokes down and it bleeds alot...appreciate ur loves 1...
bye, my dear T.T
wish u always be happy and dun be notty adi coz u adi 19.
reli, duno wat shud i said beside sorry tat what i did..i still remember the way i scolded u...
i very sorry...hope u can forget it...and go to ur new life...best wishes for u my dear..
to al my frens, my tears are dropping nonstop now....yes, i am crying adi...my heart brokes down and it bleeds alot...appreciate ur loves 1...
bye, my dear T.T
heart broken down..its hurt!
today i went out parade with friends. i know and i can feel that i will saw her...
i decided to go out kopitiam junction wif frens have a drink and in a suden time i saw her wif the guy
my heart totally FELL and i try to calm myself but actually, its hard. not to say forget easily, but when saw them i reli think bek how she treat me. i am angry but i try to think positive way, its my fault again coz i make her to do so.
ppl enjoy happily, but i suffering badly... dun tell me dun think , or calm.. its cant coz its 2 year+ relation. although im hard, she's easily forget because of a caring guy always by her side. im quitting my job from her now, i should forget but i may need more time.
day 3, i still missing and loving her that much. is really suffering, i hope time can past faster and make me forget it. i hope i can let it go, now cant...really cant. but also, i have to wish her to get a better 1, but not a playful 1.
why do guys care u so much, joke wif u so much, tok to u so much girls?? can tell me? but in my opinion, JUS MY OPINION. i felt they care gals much because they might just wan the gal fall in love to them, and when they joke, they wan the gal happily stay wif the, and tok can maintain their relation. but it is SHORT TERM... isit really when it COMES TO LONG TERM, the guy will MAINTAIn the joke? care? or tok to u alot? mebe gals out there should giv me a comment here so i can have more feedback on myself, if im wrong or im rite.
just hope she wun get cheated... my heart, broken down...frm heaven to earth...once again, sorry to u that what i have did and without care for u. but in my heart, u're still the 1 tat i always care and love, i dun voice out is my fault and its too late...take care!
i decided to go out kopitiam junction wif frens have a drink and in a suden time i saw her wif the guy
my heart totally FELL and i try to calm myself but actually, its hard. not to say forget easily, but when saw them i reli think bek how she treat me. i am angry but i try to think positive way, its my fault again coz i make her to do so.
ppl enjoy happily, but i suffering badly... dun tell me dun think , or calm.. its cant coz its 2 year+ relation. although im hard, she's easily forget because of a caring guy always by her side. im quitting my job from her now, i should forget but i may need more time.
day 3, i still missing and loving her that much. is really suffering, i hope time can past faster and make me forget it. i hope i can let it go, now cant...really cant. but also, i have to wish her to get a better 1, but not a playful 1.
why do guys care u so much, joke wif u so much, tok to u so much girls?? can tell me? but in my opinion, JUS MY OPINION. i felt they care gals much because they might just wan the gal fall in love to them, and when they joke, they wan the gal happily stay wif the, and tok can maintain their relation. but it is SHORT TERM... isit really when it COMES TO LONG TERM, the guy will MAINTAIn the joke? care? or tok to u alot? mebe gals out there should giv me a comment here so i can have more feedback on myself, if im wrong or im rite.
just hope she wun get cheated... my heart, broken down...frm heaven to earth...once again, sorry to u that what i have did and without care for u. but in my heart, u're still the 1 tat i always care and love, i dun voice out is my fault and its too late...take care!
Friday, April 2, 2010
to YOU...
i lose u, i lose u as my lovely gf...i lose a caring gf...it would be most experience i had..
im sorry that i never care u alot, im sorry that i never give u the best...
but now, a caring and lovely cute guy would replace my job.
ur Mr.J would be the caring 1 for u, loves 1 and the best 1...
i wish u , not to get cheated by guys anymore, hope u not easily trust guys...
and im gonna let u know, every guys are same...
im so caring and so lovely once i know u...it is because we are FRESH....
our relation in 2 years+ are not easy...really experience alot... i hope ur relation will not always a short term one....
wishing u always safe wherever u go,whatever u do
wishing u healthy always, whatever u drink and eat must control
wishing u best of luck in looking for next course or career.
i think my loves to you deeper than the sea, but now got another 1 to replace my job.
i will not forget you. my songs, my voice, my anger, my fear, my stress and everything, u shared wif me...thanks!! i remembered i sang to u few songs, ' I Need You' -Westlife, 'That's Why You Go Away'. But if said out memories, i cant finish typing because it is longest ever memories we had...
lastly, sorry to u my dear, babe or loupoh tat i lose to him, no care to u and always angry infront of u...i would replace this word to u during we together and i SHOULd tell u this
Babe i Love You Forever, I miss U always As i DO, i Would try to Change my bad Attitude not to always angry u, i would make u always safe, would care u more and wun scold u always like i do...i think, its too late for me to say so. because, im a loser...thx for being my loves,cares n important 1...and in my life, i adi lose 1 very very Important person in my life... its unforgettable!
=( =( =( the saddest n regret things i have done =( =( =(
im sorry that i never care u alot, im sorry that i never give u the best...
but now, a caring and lovely cute guy would replace my job.
ur Mr.J would be the caring 1 for u, loves 1 and the best 1...
i wish u , not to get cheated by guys anymore, hope u not easily trust guys...
and im gonna let u know, every guys are same...
im so caring and so lovely once i know u...it is because we are FRESH....
our relation in 2 years+ are not easy...really experience alot... i hope ur relation will not always a short term one....
wishing u always safe wherever u go,whatever u do
wishing u healthy always, whatever u drink and eat must control
wishing u best of luck in looking for next course or career.
i think my loves to you deeper than the sea, but now got another 1 to replace my job.
i will not forget you. my songs, my voice, my anger, my fear, my stress and everything, u shared wif me...thanks!! i remembered i sang to u few songs, ' I Need You' -Westlife, 'That's Why You Go Away'. But if said out memories, i cant finish typing because it is longest ever memories we had...
lastly, sorry to u my dear, babe or loupoh tat i lose to him, no care to u and always angry infront of u...i would replace this word to u during we together and i SHOULd tell u this
Babe i Love You Forever, I miss U always As i DO, i Would try to Change my bad Attitude not to always angry u, i would make u always safe, would care u more and wun scold u always like i do...i think, its too late for me to say so. because, im a loser...thx for being my loves,cares n important 1...and in my life, i adi lose 1 very very Important person in my life... its unforgettable!
=( =( =( the saddest n regret things i have done =( =( =(
hurts, really hurts!! sobs
i cant sleep well today...i waited for her sms for whole day and once i receive it, my heart brokes down... i duno why but i can said the main reason is she likes another guy...my heart keep dropping the tears...although my eyes never.... i always hope the chance of being bek together but i know even yes, i might suffering coz she will also go for another 1... her kampar life tis 1 whole year, know alot of friends. i did not agree her before to study at there becoz i afraid she will find another and like another 1. at the end of her las sem, she adi found some1 that she loves. not every1 can control their gf well, when u think that she wun but she WILL. she told me im still the 1 she love the most. but i reli cant accept wat she wrote on blog and she did like that guy...
the reason why i hate she reply guy post, chat wif guy....is the reason of NOW get BETRAYED... i reli nth much can say and i reli reli reli hurt deeply. SOrry tis word shudn't use once u done it again n again. things u shud change is ur attitude and muz be more Mature. u dunid to tell me sorry, i forgive u.. i noe my fault, i noe i lack of care, i noe eevrything i did it wrongly. But also, why shud u hurt me deeply??u make me so memorable because of hurting me so deep. u hurt me and come tell me sorry... it is not easy that sorry could cure...
the 1st day i put my relation in fb to single, u wrote at ur blog that its end without any discussion or call, but my decision is right... i would not share my gf wif another guy, cant accept my gf to write all the things that hurt me alot in the blog. I HATE IT...I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM LOSERRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day after day, time past away...and i just cant get u off my mind...nobody knows, i hide it inside...
I keep on searching but i cant find... its worth for me to cry, becoz i knew is my fault and i nv care her... this is the things should happen to me. i would take tis as my experience.
the reason why i hate she reply guy post, chat wif guy....is the reason of NOW get BETRAYED... i reli nth much can say and i reli reli reli hurt deeply. SOrry tis word shudn't use once u done it again n again. things u shud change is ur attitude and muz be more Mature. u dunid to tell me sorry, i forgive u.. i noe my fault, i noe i lack of care, i noe eevrything i did it wrongly. But also, why shud u hurt me deeply??u make me so memorable because of hurting me so deep. u hurt me and come tell me sorry... it is not easy that sorry could cure...
the 1st day i put my relation in fb to single, u wrote at ur blog that its end without any discussion or call, but my decision is right... i would not share my gf wif another guy, cant accept my gf to write all the things that hurt me alot in the blog. I HATE IT...I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM LOSERRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day after day, time past away...and i just cant get u off my mind...nobody knows, i hide it inside...
I keep on searching but i cant find... its worth for me to cry, becoz i knew is my fault and i nv care her... this is the things should happen to me. i would take tis as my experience.
the most unforgetable and unhappy birthday
i waited her call for so long but she nv even sms or call me.
i always tot she's the 1 who MUST TAM me but actually i just want her to tam me..
eventhough i always tok to her like moody way or feel dun1 choy her, but i always feel guilty and i duno why im lidat...reli no comment...all the while during our calm period, she's adi wrote out everything wif a guy...i was stunt and also angry,hurt,disapointed becoz i've get lied again and wore a green cap. i had made decision on it, she's satisfy. i reli feel suffering tis few days...becoz i duno who to tok to and therefore i started tis blog to write out all my unhappy and unplanned decision.
when i saw her post on missing the guy, i reli hurt alot and i hope it was just a LIE to me but in the end it is REAL!!!!...i was shock and shouted IMPOSSIBLE that SHE WILL do tat again to me. day by day, minute by minute, NOW is the time for me to THINK is NOT HER FAULT...let me say it out...
It is because im NOT CARING and ALWAYS SCOLD her and it makes her lidat...yes, im REGRET...reli REGRET....but it is past..i just want her to be more happy now...NOw i noe, every HUMAN got feelings INCLUDED ME!!!... im sad, hurt and it is VERY VERY.... i did hope she will bek to my side, but her decision is made. and also, i cant accept the fact that she reli like the guy..till now, im reli dissatisfy and very disappointed...i reli reli a LOSER!!!!
our loves begun on 30th august 2007...untill now, its 2 years n 7months.... i do think tat my future wife is her, i do think to take care her forever, and i do loves her as always and forever...
everything u guys ask me, I DO!!!!! because i REALLY LOVES HER ALOT!!! yes, Is ALOT till UNCOUNTABLE... i dun say it out coz im very very *dai Lam YAN*...dam NID FACE....and aways hope she is the best gf and wun always get bully by ppl....
and things ended, i have no more chance to take care her, no chance to see her, no chance to kiss and hug her...our sms and fone call now is 0...everything might becoz i DO it and make her like another guy...from here, i hope to tell EVERYONE out there, APPRECIATE ur LOVES 1...dun ABANDON them and Care them always....im the 1 tat REGRET now....what shud i do is to look forward and WORK hard for money....
I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER U...as my BEST gf and MOST LOVELY gf AS I HAVE...
i tot im guy and will jus BLEED but not CRY...sorry, once u guys got feelings, the tears keep dropping frm ur EYES and HEART...yes, my eyes and my heart CRYING ...lastly, im reli hurt alot....sorry to u tat i lack of care to u and it is too late for me to do wat shud i do.....it is an unforgettable birthday i have.... i love u, i miss u,my babe...take care!!
i always tot she's the 1 who MUST TAM me but actually i just want her to tam me..
eventhough i always tok to her like moody way or feel dun1 choy her, but i always feel guilty and i duno why im lidat...reli no comment...all the while during our calm period, she's adi wrote out everything wif a guy...i was stunt and also angry,hurt,disapointed becoz i've get lied again and wore a green cap. i had made decision on it, she's satisfy. i reli feel suffering tis few days...becoz i duno who to tok to and therefore i started tis blog to write out all my unhappy and unplanned decision.
when i saw her post on missing the guy, i reli hurt alot and i hope it was just a LIE to me but in the end it is REAL!!!!...i was shock and shouted IMPOSSIBLE that SHE WILL do tat again to me. day by day, minute by minute, NOW is the time for me to THINK is NOT HER FAULT...let me say it out...
It is because im NOT CARING and ALWAYS SCOLD her and it makes her lidat...yes, im REGRET...reli REGRET....but it is past..i just want her to be more happy now...NOw i noe, every HUMAN got feelings INCLUDED ME!!!... im sad, hurt and it is VERY VERY.... i did hope she will bek to my side, but her decision is made. and also, i cant accept the fact that she reli like the guy..till now, im reli dissatisfy and very disappointed...i reli reli a LOSER!!!!
our loves begun on 30th august 2007...untill now, its 2 years n 7months.... i do think tat my future wife is her, i do think to take care her forever, and i do loves her as always and forever...
everything u guys ask me, I DO!!!!! because i REALLY LOVES HER ALOT!!! yes, Is ALOT till UNCOUNTABLE... i dun say it out coz im very very *dai Lam YAN*...dam NID FACE....and aways hope she is the best gf and wun always get bully by ppl....
and things ended, i have no more chance to take care her, no chance to see her, no chance to kiss and hug her...our sms and fone call now is 0...everything might becoz i DO it and make her like another guy...from here, i hope to tell EVERYONE out there, APPRECIATE ur LOVES 1...dun ABANDON them and Care them always....im the 1 tat REGRET now....what shud i do is to look forward and WORK hard for money....
I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER U...as my BEST gf and MOST LOVELY gf AS I HAVE...
i tot im guy and will jus BLEED but not CRY...sorry, once u guys got feelings, the tears keep dropping frm ur EYES and HEART...yes, my eyes and my heart CRYING ...lastly, im reli hurt alot....sorry to u tat i lack of care to u and it is too late for me to do wat shud i do.....it is an unforgettable birthday i have.... i love u, i miss u,my babe...take care!!
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